Ain't gonna give up.

21 October 2008 @ 11:45 pm

i'm posting here because if i post this on my normal blog, people will judge, inevitably.
but anyway, i wanted to password protect it anw!
its taken from blogger, so if you were looking, you're smart (:

"and let your whole world see"

i swear i'm on a bad mood spree.
which just disappears from the observer's eye for convenience sake.
sucks la, i must learn to be emo outright, cause then maybe it'll stop quicker.
maybe this is what they call adolescence.
haha should start phase 2: anti-social! (then can study!) and avoid making others feel sad

thanks la jaime, this is what you get yourself into, really.
whose fault whose fault whose fault?
needless to say, its mine, of course.

oh god, i really feel like bella from new moon luh. that gaping hole. except that i have absolutely no idea why there is a gaping hole. i mean, its not like i lost a loved one (well not really anw)

who asked you to go become a small fish in a big pond?
who asked you not to listen to mrs tan the wise?
who decided not to work hard enough?
who tried so hard to do everything?
who is the stupid one who keeps doing stupid things huh?
who who who keeps failing cause either
a) she doesn't try hard enough; or
b) tries too hard?
lets answer the question shall we?
jaime maria tan the really stupid stupid one.

how on earth did i manage to decide that coming here was a good idea luh. fail fail fail. everything i start, i spoil. don't deserve these chances, really. should have been given to steph or something. which idiot decided that she should learn to fall stupidly and just believe in someone she thought was perfect, when obviously there are no perfect people. and who was told that her training was counter-productive or not entirely effective and refused to listen until low and behold we got such shithole results that is essentially worse than that of my performance in secondary one, where we barely trained? and guess who could've have stayed and worked hard cause there's an o level factor and could have reproduced sec1+2 and better with lohloh? great job jaime, you really outdid yourself this time.

yeah yeah i know, "your(God's) grace is enough" and he'll take everything we start and spoil and such. but argh, sucky feeling sucky times. if i feel like that how on earth am i gonna train properly! i gotta get over this phase really soon. but every few days i just keep falling back in. grah. "everyone needs compassion" how apt (: there's less compassion here than in ij. elitist schools, should've taken Os and gone to cj. okay maybe not. but, argh. i'm just annoyed with myself now okay, i needa rant. doesn't have to be coherent, cause this ain't LA. i needa run, i need to feel nothing, nothing at all! grahhhh, they say He only gives you what you can handle. but i'm not handling at all. and i haven't been good at all this year. aunty cee should take back the witnessing thing from me. what am i supposed to say that'll be good to anyone? actions speak louder than words, really.

i really need a pick up!
don't wanna wallow no more!
don't want this bad mood spell no more!
gonna sleep early today and hope i don't feel sucky tmrw.

oh btw, thank you people who've been talking to me & trying to cheer me up.
it helps here and there, not all the time but yeah. thanks for caring (:
i appreciate the concern and all! sorry if you feel like you're wasting your time!

on a side note, if vanessa sees this, i'm sorry i'm not going for your thing tmrw!
got a surprise for you though! :D
lots of love! :D

lizzi says she has to sleep,

but pretend i said this after you blogged : "BE HAPPY AH I TELL YOU! God has
planned everything. remember, you're only seeing a small part of His big &
b-e-a-utiful plan! :D"</p>-
RG :} -Different now says [lizzi] (10:46 PM):

thanks thanks dear! :D i'm trying trying to be happy. (:

~~what i really wanna do is lock this post up, but stupid blogger is, stupid. so yeah.~~
this half-abandoned blog will do the trick [: only smart people can see (: YAY!
i am trying to be happy, i am trying to be happy.

thanks for the favour in advance nicholas! :D

; JAIME!

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27 July 2008 @ 08:51 pm

so long, not goodbye

"BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE"

harlow, i'm moving back to blogspot cause my livejournal's hard to read, says many.

http://merrywheel.blogspot.com

i might private this and put in small little pieces of very important stuff. ( to me of course )
i shall seeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

anyway, my phone bill is baoing. so anyone reading this should not sms me on mondays wednesdays and fridays. unless you are a singtel user. Or if you are smsing me because i need to know about meetings, or if you are my mum or teacher or something. OR if you have extremely important things to tell me(i shall decide if i wanna reply). if you want, i have free incoming :D

please take note, my online-ing shall be more irregular. (:

; JAIME!

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22 July 2008 @ 10:54 pm

Hearts all over the world tonight

"All or nothing"

I'm very very tired for some reason.
I DID CHEM TODAY! :D YAY! I finally got that working meter turned on.
I shall do a little more tomorrow. And by next week I'll really be started on this stupid thing called studying.
And you know whatt, I think I missed my beloved top 20, by a litttttle bit.
): next term next term! I WILL MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG!
Oh god, I need to sleep. I need to get organised. I need to neaten up! I need to stop stressing.

And as of recently, I have totally disappeared from my friends' lives. Wonderful.
And as of even more recently, I have started disappearing from something that is very important to me, known as church.
Grahhhhhhhh, I'm not doing it intentionally but. Ah, I keep running. Further, faster. Oh dear God.
Like this Saturday's College day. And a good part of me is planning to skip skip skip cat class.
Oh, goodbye Faith that I tried to build up. One week, some people and alot of fun just destroys it. Hoho, I'm paving my road to hell.

I don't know, I feel that its all interconnected. And suddenly, tessa disappearing from my side of the world, is justified.
And, I don't know. Its not like I really don't try. I just give up. I mean, I stil have the rest of them right.
Its just that argh. It annoys me talking about it. I'm going to sleep.
I will go to church, I will believe, I will stop running away, I will make new friends and I will be a better catholic.

Oh freak, I have to do my Confirmation report.
What the hell am I going to call myself?
Who the hell do I wanna be?
Faith/Fidelis? Antonia/Antoinette? Julia?

Faith/ Fidelis obviously means faith. And St. Faith is this girl who had immense faith and left everything to God and willingly died for him, she just gave everything for him even at a young age. She humbled herself to God, and gave her whole life to him. Not her will, but God's.
Like Rachel said, it doesn't matter right?

Antonia/Antoinette's from Anthony. The saint of lost things. Antonia/Antoinette might let me have the courage and strength to always do the right thing and find what I'm missing. Always keeping faith, finding the right roads and finding God.

Julia's from St. Julia who was sold to a pagan as a servant, and did not complain at all. She just loved God with all her might, and just let him give him whatever he wanted. As a result, her owner favoured her so much and took so much care of her, in turn for her faith.

Most probably Faith/Fidelis or Julia. I'd like to find a name which shows how someone does her best to just live it up for God and just change lives and affect people in a large way just being contended to help. Maybe, I don't need a confirmation name to do that.

GOODNIGHT! :D

; jaime!

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20 July 2008 @ 11:08 pm

Do you hear me

"across the deep blue"

I HAVE BEEN HAVING WAY TOO MUCH FUN!
and the consequences are,
a) alot of work left undone,
b) super messy unorganised life; and
c) brokeeeeeeee :/ anyone wanna treat meeeeeee!

but anyhow! its been a great weeek! don't you agreee
here's what's gone on.
monday: THAIPAN ! :D
tuesday: THAIPAN + rainout soccer :/
wednesday: NATIONALS (i can run 800m in under 160 seconds, HAHAHA.) + JUMBO! :D the prawns are really good!
thursday: SOCCER! :D cheers to 2nd runners up aquila!
friday: DARKKNIGHT@suntec! :D
saturday: funonfoooooot! (:
sunday: HOLLANDVEE(w/ GEN!) :D:D

its been alot alot alot of fun!
here's the pictures today! i lost like 5 bucks cause i forgot to bring ezlink, great la. OHOH, and i have a wonderful bracelet from cine, HAHAHA ANNABEL BETCHA JEALOUS!

@ THAIEXPRESS! (:

@ COLDROCK! Their swings are really cooool! :D and they're ice-cream rocks!

& POLAROID outside FROLICKS! :D you can't see the background, but its really cooooooooool! :D

I had a good time catching up & hearing about things. HAHA. OMG, everyone's turned naughty! :O
But anyhow, it was a pretty good outing and my chem is undone, I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO! ):
Okay, I shall go sleep! Tomorrow's racial harmony. BIKINI TIMEEEEE :D

Its been a great week, and it could've been better. But, i've had worse times!
And like I said that day, its getting better. I'm coping, having fun, making new friends & getting over past mistakes.
You wanna know why I came to IP? Haha, its cause maybe RJ wasn't the place I always wanted to be.
Not when the person that you might kill was in the same school as you for a year. If you get me. (:

Anywaaaaay. I wanna sleep. Have a great week ahead friends!
Studying starts in 34 minutes! ):

And everything's the same. I wish it'd never change.
Ceteris Paribus, is a facadé.

; JAIME! :D

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14 July 2008 @ 07:48 pm

I know you hate me,

"YEAH YEAH WOH WOH! :D"

Thank you Francesca and Colin, for listening to me go blah blah blah and get freaking pissed with the world yesterday. Times of need. :D
Maybe if I hadn't slept that late I wouldn't have felt that ~~terrible~~ way. Sometimes, I just hate myself so very much.

/Add in: THANK YOU TEASER ONE PEOPLE TOO! Today was really funnnnnn! :D

You'll know that I'm feeling down when I use the word without self censors.

ANYWAY.
Today was indieventure week. AND ZOMG. I'm doing the teaser 1 thing. My group consists of, Janice, Zhengfeng & Samuel. Teaser 1 rocks la, but we really don't know how to do anything. BUT IT WAS VERY VERY VERY FUN. :D Even though we're probably not going to win, it was really very funny. What about bowling with durians and shooting on moving target boards cause we're on sail ships and all. :D Great stuff! We had frisbee in the morning too. Hahaha, we suck la! But it was very very fun! :D I think we made the right choice, ALL THE TEASER ONE PEOPLE (: Yupp. After 1245, about 20+ of us from teaser 1 went to thaipan. Hohoho, we played I never and zhoujimima. ''Twas fun( very fun ) ! The food stuff was REALLY gross. Thank god, I didn't have to eat it. phewwwwwwwwwwwwwww. :D But, yupp. It was fun fun fun! I can't believe the guys would rather us gobble down super gross food than doing dares la! I mean, I'd watch a dare anyday! I mean, haha. All the memories of seducing each other, proposing to each other, saying stupid things and acting silly. Ohwells, at least it was veryyy funn! :D

And I knocked out in the bus today. And that shows how bad sleeping at 1230am is. I should have done my chinese earlier. Anyway, I'm falling sick. AND GRAH WEDNESDAY IS THE FINAL RACE DAY. Dear Lord, you really really cannot do this to me! ): I hope I get better before wednesday! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Kays, I'm a good girl. Gotta get myself motivated for wednesday and I really gotta start on my research. Cause, we're so doomed! Oh wells, we're not planning to win right! :D

Seeyou guys. :D HAVE FUN HAVING LESSONS, WHILE WE LAUGH OUR DAYS AWAY! :D Helmsman rocks, unofficial official week of slacking, says Charmaine! :D

OH YEAH. Congrats to Charmaine & Ashley for getting 3rd and 1st respectively for 3000m! Kudos to you girls!

; JAIME!

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envious; I WANT A MEDAL TOO ):

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11 July 2008 @ 10:42 pm

You'll always be a part of me;

"When the days and the nights get a little colder"

YESSSSS!
1500m is over done and kissed goodbye!
5:36.80 is all it takes to make your race a legacy, to yourself.
I could have done better. I guess, I always could.
But this is the best I could do with the trainings and the courage I have.
And all my best, I promise. Because, the best is never enough. Onward!
And now, all that I have left to show myself, is that < 2.40.80 ( Hopefully) of fight.
I'm gonna do my best, I'm gonna do it right, do it well.
What I have may not be the medal winner or the championship stealer. But, I sure hope that it'll be my best.
A worth celebrating run, a worth celebrating fight. Worthy.
I want to do this, I really want it. I really want it bad.

You'll never be satisfied. You'd always want more.
That, is human nature. And that's all we need to be the best.
I'll have next year, where I'm gonna bring you down. Bring all of it down.
I'm gonna own you upside down inside out. This I want to do.
Now I'm more motivated to succeed. After touching and feeling Ashley's gold medal.
It feels like heaven. And if it were mine, it'd be so much more worth and so much more precious.
Sure, its for God. But this little bittle bit of cheap thrill just keeps you going when you just can't have anymore hope.
I guess, my faith isn't that up yet, to just give it all. But one step at a time, all the way.
And I need every bit of motivation I get to keep going on. To keep trying till success comes.
And the joy that Shalom had. A record. Its there alright, in the lists and minds.
To break it, to take it. That's what it means. And to be THERE. Is, remarkable.
Yes, this is pointless dreaming, but. If I could, I really would.
And this year, I promise, I'd give more than my best.
Because watch me, watch me close.
I'm gonna be a star before you know it. I'm gonna take you down.

VJ's 25th Anniversary theme is, Victoria's Journey Continues: Stories, Moments, Dreams
Dreams & Moments. Oh hell yeahhhhh. I'm gonna make moments that'll be worth remembering.
I'm gonna realise all those dreams. I am going to do my best & I won't give up. No I won't.
I remember all my arbitrary crazy dreams about beating her and her or her. And just laughing it off.
Maybe someday, I'll just rise to the occasion. And, take it away. Just, take it away.
And my mum said, wait till someone comes up, then she'll know that her victory is not so sweet.
Maybe I could be that someone. If I'm willing to work and give my 200% and more.
Come onnnnn. You could do this, and you always can, its just there. You just gotta dig deep, that's all.

I PASSED ALL MY SUBJECTS! :D
that was the target, and it was reached.
Yay, Thank you Lord above! For helping me remember everything( that I did or did not study!)
Its kinda a relief that I'm able to balance again. Rather than ~~failing~~ doing miserably at both.
Well, you never fail until you give up. And no way am I about to give up, noooooooooooo.
So, yesssssssssssssss! :D I'm gonna keep going, keep holding on.
LA, Math & Bio - A? :D Chem - B (for boo!:/) Chinese + Physics - Ppppassss! :D Zomg, thank goodness!
I guess, I need to start studying again before I lose it all again. So, Hoho. I'm gonna keep moving forward.
And. I'm gonna keep growing. In faith, in love and in hope. ( Harhar, Faith, hope & love! Such an IJ thing )
So, watch me shine, watch me shine for His glory.

And I guess really really sincerely, nothing's fair.
Because. I can be happy. But I can't be too happy.
And I can never be tired or sad. Because that means something is wrong.
And you can be sad all the days of your life, and you'd just deny it.
Yeah sure, its not my job to care anymore. You probably killed me in your mind.
Took me out of your life. I've tried okay. I've fcking tried to do things right.
I listened, I trusted and I helped. Guess it isn't enough. Guess trying doesn't count.
Guess trying as hard as you probably can to succeed never works out. So, I don't care.
I want to care, but I really can't. YOU DONT WANT ME TO CARE, SHIT. I don't like this.
Guess, best friends just don't last long. And for the record, you lasted the shortest.

And although this is only inversely related to the following:
I miss you, tessa. More than you, more than you know.
Yeah I miss the IJ girls too. But, this is different. :/

Whatever, you're always spoiling my good mood.

/edit: I read through my message history of July '07 - October '07 ( I wanted to read more, but fell asleep :X) of certain people/ a person. Guess things were too good to fail. Maybe it was just the surreal part of my life, that lets me dream. Just a little. One day it would have just been a dream, with no bad consequences.

; JAIME!

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08 July 2008 @ 07:31 pm

Take time to realise;

"Oh let me have faith"

IF SOMEONE HAD A GUN HELD IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE AND ASKED YOU IF YOU BELIEVED IN GOD, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
SAY NO AND FEEL ASHAMED THE REST OF YOUR LIFE? OR SAY YES, I DO, AND DIE STANDING UP FOR GOD?

Note: This is a true article that was printed in a southern newspaper less then a year ago

There was an atheist couple who had a child. The couple never told their daughter anything about the Lord. One night when the little girl was 5 years old, the parents fought with each other and the dad shot the Mom, right in front of the child. Then, the dad shot himself. The little girl watched it all. She then was sent to a foster home. The foster mother was a Christian and took the child to church. On the first day of Sunday School, the foster mother told the teacher that the girl had never heard of
Jesus, and to have patience with her. The teacher held up a picture of Jesus and said, 'Does anyone know who this is?' The little girl said, 'I do, that's the man who was holding me the night my parents died.'

Funny, isn't it?

Funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell.

Funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but question what the Bible says.

Funny how everyone wants to go to heaven provided they do not have to believe, think, say, or do anything the Bible says. (Or is it scary?)

Funny how someone can say 'I believe in God' but still follow Satan (who, by the way, also 'believes' in God).

Funny how you can send a thousand 'jokes' through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start s ending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing.

Funny how the lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but the public discussion of Jesus is suppressed in the school and workplace.

Funny how when you go to forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it to them.

Funny how we can go to church for Christ on Sunday, but be an invisible Christian the rest of the week. (Are you laughing?)

Funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me than what God thinks of me. (Are you thinking?)

Funny how we read the Harry Potter books in less than a day but it takes us a life time to read the bible!

Yes , I do Love God!

- From some stupid Chain mail.

I love God, but I really hate Chain mail. GRRRR.
But since they wanted me to pass it on, here it is.

1500m tomorrow. FAITH FAITH FAITH, FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS.
It'll be fine jaime, it'll be fine. Relax, and leave it in God's hands. You've wasted countless hours dragging yourself out of the house to go train and what not. You could really do this well, if you believe. Trust that you can last the end even if you kick early, trust that God'll take you through, trust that no matter what happens, its for your own good, and its the right thing, trust that you will give your best. ( Or just qualify ) This shouldn't go wrong for you. You have jesus running right beside you. Come on girl, you can do this! :D

Okay, cheeeena time. Have the book to finish reading, seeyou guys. I hope I really do well! FAITH + FOCUS, ALL THE WAY! (f+f, atw!)

/Add in: I want a bracelet from that Cine shop! ANNABEL! :/ haha, the website's http://craftinbox.com ZOMG, so nice laa. its the Ornamental bands thing. But its cheapo (its cheaper at the shop), so I don't want it for my birthday which is actually in 66 days :D :D hint!

; JAIME!

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07 July 2008 @ 10:00 pm

Thnks for the mmrs

"time of our lives"

Thank you lizzi, celeste, colin, jlowe and peter for the wonderful wonderful day out today ! :D You guys rock! :D :D

Today, we went to Sentosa + Vivo to spend our wonderful youth day! :D
I left the house at like, 1015 to catch the double deck 70 just in time and to catch colin on the bus! Haha, I know I make good time! :D Took the 70 to serangoon, where we waited for celly + lizzi to get to serangoon from hougang cause they took 72. Hmph, I wish I could take 72 too! But yuppppp, by the time we left serangoon it was like. 11. Haha, we were supposed to reach harbourfront at 11, but ya. LATE! :D hahaha. So we got to Harbourfront. where celly and colin bought tickets while jaime & lizzi went to get snacks. And later met colin & celly somewhere in giant. Haha, liz and i had fun running down the up escalator! :D so ya ya, we went to get the sentosa tix. And this time colin & lizzi queued while jaime & celly went to buy juice! haha, colin is such a flirt! (kidding!)

uhhuh, and then we got to sentosa at like 12+ when the other 2 guys had already finished band, and were making their way to harbourfront. we dropped at imbiah, and then got on again and went to beach station. and then went to siloso to playyy! :D hahaha, fun fun fun! :D didn't get wet though! we ate, played 7up and buried, celeste, colin and jlowe's feet. Hahaha. fun fun fun! :D we pushed colin & jlowe! But only lizzi got dunked. Haha, like REALLY dunked. even though she didn't have clothes. hahahahaha. oh wellllls! sorry lizzi! but lizzi's really really hot in her tankini! Woooooooooooooooot! I shall not post her picture here to protect her privacy, and to prevent all the hot guys that may fall for me from falling for her, haha! (kidding! yet again.) So yaaaa. We did the luge and skyride too! T'was funn! This time, i didn't bang anyone's cars and I was pretty fast kay! PRETTY FAST, i know peter thinks i drive real slow, WHATEVER! So yupppp.

Haha, while the girls took forever in the toilet trying to get a shot of the extremely attractive + burning hot lizzi, we wasted our time to get to vivo. So we got back to vivo at about 4.20. Ps, our movie was scheduled to start at 4.25. Hahaha ! But anyhow, we still managed to get our subways before the movie started! And it was like, 4.40? GV has definitely more adverts than Cathay, that's for sure! We watched Hancock! :D It was pretty good! I thought it was better than Get smart. But then again, I didn't really like get smart. So yaaaa. After the movie we went to Diva and then Candy Empire and left Harbourfront at about, 7? Haha, yes it was pretty late! & the train was super packed! But I got to sit, yay! :D hahah.

So we got to serangoon at like, 7.30! And we kinda wanted to get back by 7.45, so it was kinda late! And 70 the double deck came, and it was still SUPREMELY squeezy. But we went to the top deck halfway, and there were seats, so it wasn't so bad. And ya, zoom zoom zoom. And the bus reached our stops. And as usual, i was the last to stop since I live rightt at the end. But its okay :D So, i walked really fast so I could get home by 8. Took off my sandals halfway, cause they were disgustingly sticky and giving me blisters. Yupppp.

And so, I had dinner, did my math ( a little? ) and am here. I'm ~~really~~kinda tired. I hope I didn't wear myself out, argh! I needa have faith+focus+energy+endurance+speeeeed on wednesday! JIAYOUJAIME! uhhuhhh.

So this was my fantastic youth day! :D I'd post pictures, but I didn't bring a camera, so I don't have any, besides lizzi's superrrr hot picture! Which shouldn't be uploaded, haha. Okay so anyway. I'm gonna goo, bye, have a great week!

Jiayoujaime, you gotta make sure you do your best. LAST LAST LAST, FAST FAST FAST. ( last as in endure! ) Gotta unscrew this! :D
Had your fun, time do your bestest nowww!

Have been thinking about secone days recently, don't know why people keep mentioning sec1. Haha, I think the sec one jaime would have been more than ecstatic to read this post. Haha, childish, stupid, silly and obsessive girl! I've grown since then! :D

; JAIME!

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05 July 2008 @ 10:52 am

2.41.87

"Gotta have faith, gotta make this right"

Mhm, haven't posted in like, almost a week.
'Ts been greatttt! Tiring, but pretty awesomee! (BADGES WHERE WHERE WHERE!)

EIGHT HUNDRED HEATS ARE OVER! ZOMG, FINALLY!
And now its time to fuss over 1500heats, and 800 finals. (oh and 1500 finals if i actually qualify! :/)
Mhm. 800 heats, could've been much better. But I guess, that confidence I have that it could have been that much better should push me even further on 160708. And I really do I reach my ~~super high and far away~~ target. I'm gonna have faith, and ignore the fear. Cause I could go faster, and I could last. And I should believe. Could haves and should haves should really become must haves and will haves. Which I'm working on!Pain, like art, is completely subjective. I could pretend to not feel it, and I could believe its there and let it inhibit me. Fear, is the incarnate of the devil. It makes you feel like you can't do anything at all.

Anyhoww, FAITH FAITH FAITH, jaime. Belief in yourself, belief in God. :D Can do this, don't give up. Not many days till you go scot free, jiayou! Last bit last bit! :D:D:D:D:D

Was talking to lizzi that day. Mhm. Haha. I am a lucky girl who chooses to pass up chances. Who has what's great in front of her and pushes it away. Haha, but nowww, I have more important things to do, than to take up chances and take the great stuff. Y'know, I don't wanna get distracted from things that really matter to me. I need my center, my focus and my concentration. Especially, when I don't see perfect. (So, i'm obsessed with perfection. Big deal.) Hoho. But it kinda sucks since I probably have what lizzi wants. I'd give what I have to her, if I could. Cause, I don't really want it. And I sure as hell, don't need it. Oh wells. Someday, if the chance remains there, i'd probably take it, cause. Hey, how long do you think I'd be foolish enough to find perfection right? But, how many chances remain where they are for eternity. So, yes I'm really stupid to throw away chances, when you know that you may want them back later. But, haha. I think that's the way its supposed to be.

Soooo. About the other thing. You know, the one that's constantly eating up my patience and getting me annoyed. I really don't know. My email pals knoww how I feel. But, that's as far as I'm going to get it right. I mean its not fricking my fault that really nothing happens in my life. And its really not my fault that, sometimes I'm just happier than others. I mean, wth. Everyone's like that. ITS NOT JUST ME WHO HAS DIFFERENT MOODS OKAY! After awhile, every part of this just becomes dread. Cause, you know that things won't be what they used to be. Sometimes the phone rings, and I look at it and wonder how to conceal the less than contentment. And it sucks. I guess, she'd feel worse than me, cause its outright that her friends are being distanced. Maybe I should just be contended for once.

Ho wellllllls. I'd post pictures, buttt I haven't taken many. And I'm extremely lazy! OHOHOH! I got my track jacket! YAY! But its not adidas, like, NOT FAIR ): But anyways, it looks nice and is pretty comfy. Might bring it later to church, since its cold! Hahahahahaha. Wonder how belly/talooloo's doing at the family day. HAHAHA, I hope val can tell something about <insert names here>, hohoho!

OOOH! Funfair's tmrw. YOU PEOPLE SHOULD COME! Its gonna be fun (i think). Yupp!
8am - 3pm. St Vincent De Paul Chrch :D
You can take buses, 70, 103 or 854. Which would be probably quite Alien to the eastsiders!
But hahahhaha! Its not that hard to find! Jalan Kayu has 103, if that helps?

Okay, nappy + lunchy time! :D

CIAO PEEPS!

; JAIME!

/ Add in : Maybe i'll have a chance to fix something tomorrow. Talk about 420 minutes :D

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Current Music: Ludacris feat Mary J blige - Runaway love

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29 June 2008 @ 07:34 pm

Let me be the one you call;

"i can mend a broken heart"

TODAY WAS SO MUCH FUN! Like seriously! I misss this kinda euphoric, i'm on top of the world, happy birthdayy feeling. Seriously! :D

There was carwash for next week's funfair today. Hmm, had to wake up at 6.15 for 7am mass. And yaaa, i was at mass early, hurrayyy ! :D then we car washed and I got really really wet, but whatevs, was fun! :D the food kinda sucked, but oh wells. at least we made money and washed cars! and zomgg, cars are really hard to wash, i never really realised that. i mean, they're probably easy when they're clean. but that toyota or whatever the 1616 car was so super dirty we had to wipe it down with soap like 2 or 3 times and even so it was still dirtier than the other cars! grrr, but it was fun, BUT VERY TIRING. but still fun :D haven't spent so much time in church in a longlong time. but this year, time passes so fastt, good friday, was just there. cross was just over and now track's approaching and eating my heart out and earthquaking my stomach and stillness of mind. oh wells, it'll be over soon. i trust that i've been giving what's close to my best. so, i trust in you Lord!

hmm, then we did the funfair preparation. lizzi, celly, larissa, rachel and i started off with the kid's prizes thing. WOOOOH. it was soooo much fun! that was the way i used to feel about cl every week! when i used to look forward and anticipate it so much that i'd be jumping around 2/1 just talking about cl. but now, its kinda different. i wish we could bring back that euphoric sensation to cl, and just have as much fun. maybeits not cl, maybes its just us. maybe we ought to have more enthusiasm? oh wells. anyhow, we had super alot of fun la, in short :D and yaaa. i brought boots home! :D:D:D. he's so cuteeeee. and ya. i guess i haven't felt this happy happy feeling in a long timeeee. :D. i'll post pictures today, since SHUSHU asked me to. hahaha.

guess i gotta move on. i have no idea how many times i've said this but now i really wanna mean it. GOODBYE J&P, I DON'T WANNA CARE IF YOU GET STDs OR WHATEVER. GET OUT OF MY MIND, RID ME OF THE HATRED, THANKS :D

BOOTS BOOTS BOOTS BOOTS :D
betcha you want it toooooo :D

and this is my "schoolbag" :D:D
ONE THREE PENCIL CASE :D

and these are the 2 tickets of the 2 movies i watchedd betcha jealousss :D
sorry the orientation of pics are wrong, i lazyyyyyyyy :D

and this is my super cheap 5 dollar bag :D
from cotton on body:D hahaha. so fun so fun.
shopping after tests are the bestest thing ever.

so there you go shushu, i'll post pictures now since i finally figure out how you do this, haha. i'm a NOOB :/

; JAIME! :D

Ps I was thinking of Fides/ Faith or Julia/Juliet for my confi names. What say you friends! :D Comment and tell me!
*Confi names are like another name ya ya. Something I get to choose, yay!:D

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happy

Current Music: We the kings - Check yes Juliet

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